My Maybe Not So Exciting Nail Story: Day 24 of 100

In this never ending journey of healing...
I am learning to be humble
I am learning to be silent
I am learning to be kind
I am learning to love.

But most of all I am learning to be humble, silent, and kind with myself.
I am learning to love... MYSELF

I promise this is not a big deal but my nails are amazingly long now (or so I consider long).
Yeeeee!!! I've never had them this long.

Ok, so you can't get all excited and jump around the room like me if you don't know my story.... Flow with me.



Kindness is a word I really like. It's the identical sister of Love, teaching the same principles of respect and honor.

"Being nice" is different from being "kind". To be kind, one is genuine. It comes from the heart.

I've lacked this type of love and kindness to myself for the longest time. Years ago, especially as I transitioned from my life as a Jehovah's Witness into the life I live today there was a lot of fear, anxiety... and oh my lord! A LOT of guilt. I had a tornado of turmoil, emotions which where all out of whack and confused.

Let me kindly advice, when you get to this point find a creative outlet like NOW or your emotions will channel through your body and cause damage.

What kind of damage? Allow me proceed.

When anger can no longer withstand the pain and frustration, he will roar. He had me physically hitting myself with my bare hands, banging my head against walls and doors, my teeth embarked deep journeys from the top of my nail to the deepest depths of my cuticles, rewards coming out bloodier and bloodier by the day. My void would find refugee in food but then my skinny and disciplined mind would force me to purge.

I was a hot mess.

Therefore, today when I look at my nails, I am proud. I am happy. I notice the long journey embarked, no longer on my nails but on my path towards truth, healing and empowerment.

I still have much healing to do. Believe me, once in a while a little bit of "Jehovah's Witness" comes back to me, but I honor it and take it a day at a time.

One last thing, if you also are embarking this journey of healing....
.... please be so ever gentle with yourself. You've been through so much, why make the healing journey just as tough. Release the struggle. It no longer serves.

A question for you:
What are your favorite creative outlets? Do you have art to share? Post a link in the comments. I would love to follow.

With you, a day at a time,
Queen Goddess